Three years ago today I gave birth to twin girls.
Twins.
It still blows my mind I carried two babies at the the same time.

That was the first peek we had at my uterus. I saw two little beans as soon as my doctor put that ultrasound thing on my belly. I thought he was joking and then I cried. I was terrified of not being able to carry the babies to term. I think at one point I asked the doctor for that procedure where the cervix gets stitched shut so the babies wouldn’t come out too soon. He said no. Yeah, so I guess you could say I was paranoid.
We told my mom about the babies that evening and she cried, too.
We waited until we were in Washington to tell Mike’s family the news. My sisters-in-law were so sweet. I remember lots of “awwws” (as in “we’re happy for you but feel a little sorry for you, too”) and hugs.
A month before the babies were born my mom and grandma threw me a huge baby shower. Our family, friends, and coworkers were so incredibly generous. We didn’t have to buy diapers for a year and didn’t have to buy wipes for two years. We had dozens of pairs of baby shoes, mountains of clothes. I get emotional just thinking about how wonderful people were to us.
The pregnancy was difficult and I was in the hospital three times for early contractions. I had a rash near the end of the pregnancy that was just AWFUL. I practically begged my doctor to take the babies out, I itched SO BAD. I’m grateful, though that except for a rash and contractions, my pregnancy was uneventful.
Friday, December 14th, we went to the hospital to have our babies. I cried (are you seeing a pattern?) when they gave me the spinal block as my mom held me and whispered “You are so amazing” in my ear. The delivery went by so quickly I remember only a little. I remember Mike sitting by my head. I remember when they took Aubrey out it felt like they’d taken out a ton of bricks. I could breathe! I was shocked to see how light her hair was. I don’t remember when they took Ayla out or what I was thinking when I saw her. Bummer.
Mike and I have discussed this many times. My labor with Brooklyn was so long and drawn out that we had time to adjust and ease into the whole “It’s no longer just the two of us” thing. With the twins, we crammed a day’s worth of emotions into a half an hour. It feels like being punched in the stomach. In a good way of course.
[sigh] My husband is so cute.
Anyway, so here we are three years later.
These girls bring so much to our lives. Although they’ve certainly scared us out of trying for just one more. (We were told that statistically we had very high chances of having multiples again.) Given all that, we adore them and look forward to watching them grow up to be awkward tweens, apathetic teenagers and then one day, amazing wives and mothers.
Thanks to those who came to the little party last night. The girlies had a blast.
Ayla & Aubrey, we love you to pieces!
